- went to sm to get the serial code for the Adobe Cs3..
- Loaded my sun for 5 days...
- studied a lil on Theology2 for the finals
- looked at the calendar and cried..
I cried a tear for all the years that had passed.. I wish I could turn back time just like how Ashton Kutcher did in the Butterfly effect movie...
I cried for the fact that I am turning 19 this June.. and I don't want to say goodbye to childhood yet.. I dont want to be a full grown lady yet... I miss the feeling of being cradled in the arms of my grandparents back then...In 3 yrs I would be on my own and I am not really ready yet... Right now I feel like a small kid crying helplessly for a toy that could never be retrieved anymore.. lost forever...
I cried for the lost bonding I had back then with my high school friends... I regret every moment we spent ignoring each other... I regret the times we didn't talk even though we are face face.. the times we had wasted on cold wars...
I miss the moment I danced on stage with my fellow dancers... I miss the pressure I feel during quiz bees and exams...
I miss the laugh.. I miss the tears.. This is strange.. I am crying not because 1st sem is about to end.. I am crying because I miss high school..
I cried for being a coward... For not having the courage to say 'I love you' to my grandparent...
How many years had they been taking care of me? 18 years.. They had been there for me for 18 years and I couldn't even return the favor to them.. I want to kill myself for that.. I feel guilty of being able to say I love you everyday to my bf and not even once to the people who raised me up..
I'd do anything to turn back time..